Five and a half weeks? It feels like months since I’ve been here.
Five and a half weeks ago AF arrived yet again and I held up my hands and gave up on trying for a baby. I tried to carry on the minimalist part of my blog at a new place, but just couldn’t get into it. My home is pretty much completely decluttered and I don’t really feel the need to go much further right now.
I felt adrift, not writing on here, as it has been my constant companion for so long, and through so much emotion.
But an idea has been growing in my head over the last month, so I’m going to run with it. I miss blogging. It’ll be good to be spending time writing about something that I’m genuinely interesting in again.
For the foreseeable, you can find me at Ordinarily Raw. Raw food is something I’ve been reading about and researching for years. Long-time followers may remember I experimented with increasing my raw food intake early this year, but it fell by the wayside in the face of so much angst and stress while TTC. This is starting from scratch, taking it slowly, and hopefully sharing photos to document any changes.
Because I am just so tired of feeling, and looking, so old and tired.
In other news
Taking the contraceptive pill has been exactly what I needed. No thinking about TTC, no worrying about ovulation, timing, spotting, fake pregnancy symptoms, or anything else. I have been very grateful for it. I have pretty much accepted that I am no longer fertile and although I am not exactly OK with this, I am finding it an easier fact to live with. I still cry occasionally, but it is only occasionally and not every day.
A sad end to a long period of misery, but there is life afterwards, you just have to start seeing what’s right in front of you all over again.